When you are young you feel invincible: an Ubermensch – Superman. But a time comes when the arrows and bullets no longer bounce off. They pierce deeply.
The deepest disappointments come when people let you down, or as I sometimes say, “When 50 year olds behave like 15 year olds.”
A Dark Time
I remember, during a dark time in my life, sitting by myself in the lounge room when everyone else was out of the house, playing a John Michael Talbot CD. His words, often the straight from the Bible, ministered to me as very few people could at the time. Even now, 17 years later, I can play that CD and memories and feelings come flooding back. On reflection, this is healthy, as it reminds me of how a faithful God has been with me through that time. Little did I know at the time that this period would also signal the end of my pastoral ministry.
I also have a similar experience with the Psalms. I read them extensively during my teaching time in the UK. They became God’s personal pep talks to me every morning as I prepared for school. Unlike my earlier readings of the Psalms, when I was often reading them for others, I was now reading them with a desperation to hear from God. He didn’t let me down.
On a much lighter note (pun intended) Maddy Prior & SteeleyeSpan singing Somewhere Along the Road reduce me to tears as I remember the really good times we had during our 16 months in the UK. I’ve put the song to a piece of “road” video that Hetty took as we drove through the south of England about a month before we left. I can’t watch it without getting a tear or two in my eyes. Ahh, I’m getting soft!