After having written about my growing uncertainty about previously held facts and truths, my wife, as is her habit, challenged me to reflect further. From a Christian perspective what is the value of this uncertainty? Does it aid the Christian walk? Does it help us grow?
This made me think and ponder even further. As I stated previously, uncertainty hasn’t weakened or unsettled my faith. The reality is that it drives me more into “the arms” of God. It makes me more reliant on Him and increasingly highlights my own inability to know or understand all things. There is a subtle (or maybe not that subtle) message in our rationalistic age that says we can know and discover all things. But the old adage is true, “The more we know, the more we know we don’t know.” Personally I have discovered this to be true and I am at peace with this because I know my Creator.
One more point: I remember years ago a friend was given a chart by his brother of sins and virtues and my friend’s brother was ticking off those virtues he had achieved and those sins he had conquered. I have found reality to be far different. The older I have become the more I have discovered that things need to be added to the “sin list”. My heart’s deceptiveness has shown itself more devious than I imagined as a 25 year old. And my virtues maybe not as virtuous as I thought. I remember when (a long time ago) for a moment I was quite proud of my humility until the irony of that hit me like a Mack truck.
This again drives me into the arms of a the God who loves me despite my foolish mind games and my uncertainty.
There is certainty but it lies far, far away from me.