I am still surprised by my own thoughts, feelings and behaviours at times. So the other day when our first grandchild was born I was surprised by the overwhelming surge of emotion that swept over me. When my wife contacted me with the news there was that mixture of tears, choking and adrenalin – all the more embarrassing because I was trying to teach at the time! I knew this was exciting but Teddy’s arrival was more than that. For a moment I was taken back 40 years when our first child was born. The red hair, once again, took my breath away. The miracle of new life enthralled me all over again. I remembered that mixture of anticipation and fear. Then I was a new dad now I am a new granddad.
I have had to wait a long time for this moment so for just that reason alone Teddy’s birth was very special. Untangling all the emotions is a bit like trying to roll up a ball of wool after the cat has got at it. There is just so much going through my heart and head. On one side you know the
sleepless nights that the new parents will go through; the tiredness but that is outweighed by the enlargement of the family – a new person, a new personality that shares some of the parent’s but then makes it his own. There will be diamonds and coal – the good days and bad. There will be the accidents and illnesses but also the achievements. Life is dangerous but also exciting.
As a parent the greatest joy is being able to share with your child the story of faith; the story of God who not only created you but loves you with this amazing love. For me, that part of my daughter and son in law’s journey will be the most important and exciting one. There will be all the amazing “firsts” – tooth, step, mum, dad … opa, supergran. But ultimately these pale when a young heart comes to know their God personally.
I love you Rosey, Paul and Theodore – may God bless this new stage of your life with His amazing grace!